surgical set back

well, i had my gall bladder out yesterday. i'm happy that it is finally done, i haven't been out running or even walking because of it. once the healing is done, a few weeks i figure, i will start again.

the surgery itself went fine, the pain is alright. better once i got better drugs :)

really looking forward to feeling better and getting rid of the t3's

Oh Thou Art a Cruel Scale

LOL.. my scale is cruel.. mean!! every since my vacation, it has been creeping higher and higher. it isn't like i haven't been trying, it could give me a break, you know? alas, no breaks for poor me. guess this means i am still being really bad, in spite of trying. i start off really good in the mornings, and then poof! i even contemplated trying the blood type diet again, which i did AMAZING on years ago. but the amount of work! i was thinking about trying it small scale, but i pulled out my books and i don't see how small scale is possible. we'll see. maybe i will start by incorporating the snacks or something. but all i really want is chocolate.

anyway, in an effort to beat the scale into submission i actually got up at 6am and went out in the pitch black darkness and walked/ran. i managed to run for 8 min!! this is phenomenal! i am so impressed with myself! i also took an ibuprofen immediately after walking in the door, cause that is going to KILL me later!! LOL

i made myself go out for a few reasons. 1) i have been feeling sloth-ful. trouble getting up off the couch, moving sluggishly.. 2) my body has been aching all over even when it really shouldn't be, today it has a reason LOL 3)my pants aren't fitting as happily as they were, it upsets me everytime i have to pull them up. 4) the guilt of not going!! lordy, the guilt!! 5) i just felt like i needed it.

so i did it :D

vacation blow up

i just got back from vacation.. well, not a real vacation, i flew across the country with my two kids to visit my parents, my sister and family, and friends i went to highschool and university with.

i went out for three walks, but had my two year old with me. actually one of our walks he made me run for 2 minutes, LOL i had to ask him to stop. and i had to pack him halfway back, that is exactly what i need: to be packing around an extra 30 pounds!! LOL

so i gained, of course. i had hoped not to. that was my goal, but my parents love baguettes and brie, and crackers with cream cheese and hot pepper jelly, and general late night snacking. and let's not forget the gin and tonics!! holy hell... and the cooking. mom did ALOT of cooking. and there were leftovers for lunch *sigh* i was doomed from the start.

8lb.
i gained 8 lb.
so i started tracking yesterday and did AMAZING until after my post dinner nap due to jet lag, and i blew it. big time.
i am back at it today, and i will start walking as soon as i can wake up before 9am, and am not exhuasted every minute of the entire day.

smells like...

i did it! it's been a week and a half since my last walk, but i went out this morning. i woke up just after 6:30 and couldn't get back to sleep so i headed outside. i only walked, did feel like running, but at least i remembered my mp3 player this time. The smells this morning were amazing, first thing i noticed was the lack of heat in the air, and it is starting to smell like fall. I LOVE THE FALL! it is my favorite time of year! by the end of my walk the smell had been burnt off by the sun, but it was there!! the other thing was i could smell chlorine as i walked near houses with pools, i have never noticed that before. The birds were calling eachother and there were lots of people out for walks. it was beautiful out! i love starting my day out this way because i eat better through the day, and i need it. i am still the weight i was, but it fluctuates a bit. i am heading across the country on tuesday to visit my family with the kids, i am taking my shoes. fingers crossed.

i also survived swimming lessons and being seen in a bathing suit. thank goodness none of the other mamas were tiny. i wouldn't have been able to take it LOL.

stupid... just stupid!!

so... i thought i would be a good mommy and sign the kids up for swimming. the girl is no big deal, i know her level. the boy means i have to go to because he is too young. i went online this morning and signed them up. it took 2 hours to hit, how stupid i am.

do you know what this means? i have to parade in front of all those tiny mama's in a bathing suit. any time i wear a bathing suit i feel like jabba the hut. that's me. and there is a huge window along one entire wall plus an area for clothed parents to watch. me. in a bathing suit.

excuse me, i need to find a brick wall to bang my head against.

Shocker

well.. the complete unexpected happened. i was outside this evening and it wasn't nearly as hot out as i thought i was. i was struck by motivation like lightning. i ran upstairs, put on my gear, announced to the hubby that i was leaving for 30 min or so. and i did. i was in such an all fire hurry to get out of the door, however, that i forgot to take my mp3 player. i had no music. so i had been tossing the idea of staying out 45 min, but with no music i am suprised that i made it for the whole 30. actually it was 32 and i ran for 4:10 of that. rather proud of myself, i must say.

frustration

i am so frustrated. i have been trying for almost a week to get up at 6 and i just can't. it is so hot here, that anything later and you are risking heat stroke (not that that stops some people). i am staying up to late, getting my second wind before i can quickly hop into bed and ingore it. my eating is great until my mother in law pulls out the dessert/cookies/cupcakes/sweet loveliness that she brought home with her, and there is always lots for tomorrow. and she LOVES to go out for lunch. i desperately need to get out and exercise. on the upside i am doing more cleaning :)

a new life lesson

Today i was at a water park with my kids and one of their friends for 3 hours. they had hats and sunscreen, shade time, the whole nine yards... no this isn't what you are thinking, i did take care of me too. I had a hat, sunscreen, shade time. after their lunch break i made sure to re-apply sunscreen to all of us. the mistake i made was when i re-applied my sunscreen, i was wearing my tank top which i was not wearing when we were around the water. this is not the life lesson.

the life lesson is that i was going to post a picture of my sunburn on my back and when i took the pictures with the auto timer i got a brilliantly clear view of exactly why i starting this blog. my ass! my fat rolls! jesus christ save me from myself!! yes the 14 lb that i lost and have managed to keep off despite the presence of my mother in law in the house is great, but a far cry from where i had hoped to be at this point, and no where near where i need to be.

do you know what my problem is? do you care?? LOL... i dont care if you care, i am gonna tell you anyways. i forget that i am way overweight. in my head i am average weight and don't look bad at all. in my head, because i am not fat i don't need to watch what i am eating or exercise. the problem is that in my head is, sadly, only in my head. when i catch sight of myself in a mirror, or like today with the camera, it takes me aback, i am shocked, and then i say "oh. yeah. i forgot. stupid."

week 27 - Tuesday

My daughter had her tonsills out today, and i did suprisingly well. especially seeing as i was starving! i think it was sympathy hunger, though... because i was hungry even right after i ate. It was really stressful though.. could have been stress hunger, which i consider par for the course.. but i didn't do awful.

cal 2115 perfect, but i may have missed something.. i really tried not to though
fat 86 over 20g.. *sigh* at least it wasn't double
fib 25 well done
pro 72 probably higher, but ah well
sod 1700 well done

i didn't exercise.. i'm afraid it isn't going to happen this week, i am all about my daughter right now. plus, it is dangerously hot. convenient that it would happen when my priorities are elsewhere.. :)

week 27 monday

i went out walking yesterday morning. even at 9am it was really hot! i decided to walk to pick up my perscription, and i took my son with me in his stroller. It took us 20 to get there, 15 min waiting and browsing, and 20 min home.. we were about an hour all together and i was DRIPPING when i got back home. it felt great and i know it was a good workout because i am hurting still today :). i am hoping to get out again tomorrow morning.

i have been really tired lately, and today i am feeling bloated and yucky. plus, my weight has been creeping up. i am still down 10lb from where i was, but no where near as good as it was. i really need to make sure i am active, and watch my eating better.. it is really hard with my mother in law living here. she gets cravings for bad foods and buys me lunch, and she is stocking my pantry with temptations. she will still be here for another month, so i gotta learn to say no.

well, i started tracking again because i WILL NOT put the weight back on!! i mean it! so i have numbers again.

cal 2340 OVER!!!
fat 112 HOLY CHRIST, OVER!!! DAMN NEAR DOUBLE!!
fib 19 fine
pro 96 actually pretty good
sod 1820 good

jesus! if that is what happens when i am watching it, no wonder i put some weight on! there were so many things i DIDN'T eat LOL..

week 26 - Monday

so i set my alarm for 6:25 hoping i could get up. not only was i SOUND asleep, i didn't know what the alarm noise was when it went off. i got up to test my wakability. it was pretty good.. by 6:37, i was outside listening to deaths of hundreds of snails as they crunched under my running shoes.

ok.. i exaggerate.. i really tried to spare as many as i could which meant running while looking down to plan my next foot placement... awkward!! luckily i was watching as i ran by the MONSTER slug that was planning on eating me. i am not exaggerating that one!!! serious! good thing those suckers are slow!! that would have killed me if i had stepped on it. i have stepped on one before.. and it made me bounce down the yellow brick road! yes there is a story for that.. a true story.

so i was out for 40 minutes and ran 7.5 minutes. maybe i should try a bike ride on Wednesday if my legs are killing me. i should try to alternate the muscle groups to kill in a week.. legs, butt, arms, etc.. :D ya think?

week 25

well... my pains have been explained.. my gall bladder has got to go! i am happy that it is that instead of my esophagus. not sure what they would have done. I am happy to have an answer for sure, as well. however, now that i know i have to have surgery, i am totally nervous. Plus, they have sent in the referral to the surgeon as urgent. Not emergency, but urgent because i not only have stones, but my gall bladder is also inflamed.

exercise wise, i haven't since monday. first of all that 7 min of running damn near killed me for days, and i have been kinda down. not reason for it that i can think up, just a hiccup i suppose. i really do need to get the eating under control again. my friend that i convinced to join me in weight loss has totally gone gang busters and is looking fabo!! she even made me try her nasty egg whites. don't think i will go that hard core, but super proud of her progress!!

week 25 - phew! near miss lol

well, i was not able to get up this morning. i had a stupid scan to do and was in starvation mode not because i was truly hungry, but because they told me i couldn't eat. you never want something as bad as when someone says you can't have it. the nurse suggested that i have issues with authority. LOL.. then i pigged out to compensate. it's a necessity. i think it's in the rules, even. ;P

anyways i wrote off the walk/ run/ exersise for the day figured i would try tomorrow.

then i got motivated. what the hell? where did that come from? 6pm i am raring to go. downsides were kids still need entertaining and it was stinking hot!! 30* (or 86* for any americans). i figured my motivation would die

it didn't!! i went out at 9pm it was still hot! it dropped to 25(77). i was out for over half an hour and i RAN for 7 MIN!!! Boy was i dripping when i got back home. stretched, hopped in the shower, and i am feeling good. Let's see how i feel in the morning LOL

btw - 9pm smells better than 6am, but it has more bugs!! and they are all blind. they were flying into me left right and centre. i looked like a spastic moron and sounded like leaky bellows. LMAO how is that for a picture.

week 24 - strong

omg! i got up and did it again! i have to tell you, though. it is a good thing it is beautiful here that early in the morning, because in my head it is UGLY! i have decided that 6am is ugly, until i get up, dressed and out that door. i even lay in bed and debated this morning. but again, i shut off the old brain and did it. 35 min, no running today. maybe i will hurt less later? lol

week 24 - weak

there was no reason for not going out today except that i was tired and my legs were still hurting. i am just getting back into it and it is the first time i have EVER tried to get up and exercise that stupid early.. concider it a bump in the road

week 24 - hall pass

i am excused from being outside when it is raining cats and dogs. never mind that my alarm wasn't set anyways because i didn't go to bed until midnight on account of the fact that i had my quilting potluck last night. tomorrow for sure. :P

week 24 - success!!

Before i went to bed, i had changed my mind on the whole 6am thing.. just thinking about being up that early makes my skin crawl. i mean, i don't have a job.. why would i do that to myself??

my boy.. my lovely lovely boy..

He decided to get up just before 6. I was able to convince him to go back to sleep. But there i am, 6am, in my bathroom, staring at the clock thinking
"i could go for that walk.
are you stupid? why would you do that?
It would be good for us.
Who cares? we could also go back to sleep!"

so i stopped thinking, got on my clothes and LEFT THE HOUSE! at 6:15 i was trucking on down the sidewalk. It was a beautiful day out! I even ran for 4 1/2 minutes of it. i walked as fast as i felt like (and it gradually got slower and slower LOL) and i ran when i felt like it, for as long as i wanted.

it was very theraputic and i am very proud of myself.

think i could do i again? lol i was in AGONY when i got home...

week 24 - funny

so, i had decided that was going to get up at 6am this morning and go for a walk. i don't have energy later in the day, i figured this would work. well, you know how dreams can sometimes cross over and incorporate your real life? I woke up for no good reason at 5 am, came up with a perfectly legitimate reason for NOT getting up at 6 am, and changed my alarm. i have no idea what that reason was, it was already gone when i woke up in time to get my daughter off to school but i am SURE it was a good one. *eye rolling* what the hell!! LOL.. i even remember doing it, and i remember thinking that it was legitimate.

let's try again tomorrow.

week 21 day 5

cal 1844
fat 77
fib 19
pro 54
sod 2940

horribly busy weekend planned.. i will write something on the weekend.. after it's over, if i survive it LOL

Week 21 day 4

cal 1828
fat 76
fib 17
pro 72
sod 1230

Before you go all 'Yip Ha-ing' i have to tell you what is NOT included in here. I went out to a jewelry party. I have never been to one. It was nice stuff. But, inevitably, at these parties there is food. Yummy, nibbly food. I did not go hog wild, but i had some lovely butter tarts, tiny pieces of carrot cake, a piece of celery so i didn't feel completely depraved, some pitas and dark rye bread pieces with various dips. Impossible to account for. other that my fat, i can hope i broke even. i can hope, can't i?? LOL

week 21 day 3

i am finding this round to be very difficult. i just want to be left alone to eat what i want! LOL which is how i got into the mess, isn't it? my numbers suck. horribly. but i tracked. i have to confess that i didn't track a couple of things later on in the day, but if i hadn't gone to arby's for lunch i would have been fine :P. sigh. i dont' want to make good decisions. i want FAT!! that sounds discusting.

cal 2550 (almost 400 over, again)
fat 120 (OMG!! double!!)
fib 20
pro 87
sod 3353 (no comment.. christ)

week 21 day 2

well, the only way i would call today successful is that i managed to track. I might have been fine if not for the half of a giant dairy milk chocolate bar and the chips that i didn't weight so i don't know exactly how many i had. i was feeling panicky and deprived so made some stupid choices.. have to do better tomorrow.

cal 2553 (400 over)
fat 92 (almost 30g over)
fib 30
pro 65
sod 3465 (1220 mg over)

stupidhead.

alright.. cue music, take.. what take are we on. 5? 6?

I haven't even gone back to figure out what week i am on again, i have lost count. i put on two pounds i think.. maybe 3.. and i started to panic. so i have started tracking again today. I am still down more than 15 pound. that really doesn't sound like much, but do you know what it equates to? It means that when i put on last years capris and shorts, as i am pulling them up my legs, cringing, waiting for them not to fit, to have to fight with the zipper, to jump and cry and get angry. It means that when i pull them up, pull up the zipper and do up the button. they fit. beautifully.

Every time i pull out an old pair from last summer, i hold them for a minute. close my eyes and pray to God that they will fit. I hadn't realized that i do this all the time. It isn't a happy place to be.

What is happiness? it is knowing that they will fit, and might even have a little bit of extra room.

So i am tracking again. because if i lose more, maybe i will lose the dread that comes with shopping and realize you aren't the size you thought you were, you need the next size up.... again. i want to like shopping.

ya ya, i know.. shut up already ;) you will get my numbers later.

ya ya.. i know

it is not that i fallen off the wagon, per se... my month of May is one that i am merely hoping to survive and hopefully remember the good times. LOL.. Every single weekend is packed!

My daughter's First Communion, her dance makeup lessons, photo shoots, and recital, mother's day, my birthday, a friend i haven't seen in five years coming to visit, my mother-in-law essentially moving in for several months (which does not make me unhappy, btw), are all happening in the month of May.

On top of that is my regular monthly plans: book club meetings (hopefully reading the damn book), my quilting executive meeting, my regular quilting meeting, sewdays, etc.. and then the stupid little health issues that seem to be cropping up.

I'm afraid tracking not been a priority at all. Happily i can report that i have not put on any weight. I think i will continue to be aware, not worry too much, and pick it up again soon.

sat

cal 2233
fat 67
fib 36
pro 99
sod 2748

over on everything! but not horribly. if you look at my week all together i am:
under in calories by 1037
i went over in my fat by 9g
my fibre is not an issue
protein is under my 58g.. still need to work on that, but the lentils are totally helping!
my sodium was under by 1842mg.

it is a far more sucessful week overall than last week.. let's see how nice the scale is to me on monday :) especially if you keep in my mind that my daughter's first communion is tomorrow and we are having the family over for finger foods and cake *sigh*.. fingers crossed and send me helping vibes :)

wekk 17 day 5

cal 1801
fat 63
fib 26
pro 76
sod 1930

the thing that i am most proud of for today, is that i took what i was going to make for dinner, looked at the sodium, and decided to try and make it myself. it was alright. not great, but it had a fraction of the sodium. as a result, my sodium is under, otherwise it would have been over. Plus, i was at the mall with a friend today, and we based our lunch on the healthiest desicion we could make. subway it was. the grilled chicken breast sandwich on 9 grain bread.

i am still feeling like crap. the medication to make my stomach stop hurting is giving me an awful headache. this is a side effect that should go away. fingers crossed cause i got a BUSY weekend!

week 17 day 4

after last night, i didn't want to track today. But I did. Aren't you proud of me? I also didn't want to eat, but i got hungry enough that i had to. I also had my appointment with the gastro-enterologist this morning. He thinks i have esophegeal spasms. The problem is that i am already medicated for the cause of those and shouldn't be having them. so he ordered a blood test to look for other things that could be causing my horrific pains. He also gave me a perscription and i am hoping to hell that it works because i have been in pain damn near every moment for the last 36 hours! It varies in strength which is the only reason i have survived today, but last night was rough.
This morning i thought i was being really good in getting a muffin from Tim Horton's for breakfast, something easy on my tummy and not bad for me. What a stinking joke that is! 400 calories??? 19 grams of fat??? and 660 grams of sodium?? What the hell!! as a result for dinner i was allowed 1/8 of a pizza and 1/2 cup of lentils. and a rum and honey later to keep my sanity. LOL

cal 2032
fat 71.3
fib 27.6
pro 76.7
sod 2087

i did a pretty good job of making up for it, i think.

week 17 day 3

well, i had a lovely day! and was very good with my numbers up until i went out for dinner. i deliberately kept my eating down through the day to compensate, and i have been down all week so i wasnt too worried about it. but then when i got home, i didn't how to figure out the nutritional information of what i had eaten. i used popular chain's similar food. i figure it at least gave me a ball park:

cal 2157
fat 95
fib 24
pro 100
sod 2063

not bad hey? except for the fact that i couldn't even get a ball park on my dessert. so that isn't in there. to balance that fact out? you will have to file this under TMI (Too Much Information) for certain! i had an attack of my stomach again! this was was AWFUL! and at around midnight, i puked up everything i had eaten since late afternoon. happily, as soon as i vomited, i felt better. unhappily the pains woke me up from a dead sleep again an hour and a half later. how on earth do you figure your numbers out under those circumstances? i forgave myself the cake, and figure i had to have digested some of it. :D

obviously i am writing this tomorrow, but i changed the date for consistency :P

week 17 day 2

I have been super proud of my eating lately and today was along the same lines it has been.

cal 1991
fat 60
fib 38
pro 88
sod 2033

everything was under except my protein.. and i have found a way to get that up too. lentils. 3/4 cup of lentils has 27 grams of protein. so i need to start incorporating that into my lunches maybe. it is also really high in fibre, 16g.. my fibre is already high... i think i need to up my water intake.

week 17 day one

another awesome day! i am a bit hungry, but not willing to go over my goal numbers

cal 1997
fat 58
fib 32
pro 88
sod 1357.2

see that sodium?? are you looking?? that is almost HALF of what i am allowed!! woo hoo!! as long i don't eat anything out of the house, i am good. i took my son to mcdonald's today.. the only thing i ate was 1/4 of his hamburger. i waited until i got home and i wouldn't normally have done that. even my protein is pretty close.

week 17 weigh in

OMG!! I am trying to hard not to jump around the house!!! i am down 4 more pounds!! 4!! in one week!!

my total? i am down 18 POUNDS!!!

yes, i am happy :D

i need 12 more in 9 weeks..

sun

cal 1726
fat 42.5
fib 23.7
pro 72.7
sod 2110.2

under on everything except fibre, which is good for everything except protein.. still working on it. going to pick up some canned tuna.. hope that will help me get my protein up.

sat

cal 1850.5
fat 65.7
fib 15.6
pro 58.3
sod 1802.2

i think i made up for yesterday's sodium overdose nicely.. fat was on target, fibre low, but again yesterday's was high so i feel good.. that protein is so hard to get up there..

week 16 day 5

I am posting this after the fact, so i don't know what my state of mind was :) but i think i did pretty good, except for the sodium... surprise, surprise.

cal 2092 - under a bit.. good
fat 69.5 - over 5.5 g.. not bad
fib 30.75 - over 8g.. hope i drank enough water lol
pro 82.75 - not quite high enough.. but not bad
sod 3380 - killer! over by over 1000g and all because of a mcdonald's mediterranean salad with grilled chicken. what the hell? you try and be all healthy. i think they are trying to kill us.

week 16 day 4

well, not as bad as yesterday but still over and far from what i wanted. hubby, damn him, brought me home a lindt lemon ginger chocolate bar. and, while i only had three squares of the f&*(ing thing, it killed me.

cal 2690
fat 85
fib 25
pro 83
sod 1843

on happy news, my sodium was 500 under!! trying to find positives here, people!!

week 16, day 3

alrighty.. not my most successful day.. as a matter of fact, it probably can go up as the worst day i have tracked. it is stunning that i even finished tracking because i knew i had screwed up, but i did. it was, to balance it out, my most sucessful cleaning day in weeks, though. do you think that helps?? LOL..

cal 2831 well, 700 calories over.. shit
fat 74 over 10grams... again, shit
fib 38 way over.. i better go drink a lot of water :)
pro 96.5 perfect
sod 2754 sadly, i dont' think that is the worse sodium i have had lol..

at least i can laugh about it... does it sound like i am laughing?? i am actually trying to bend my leg around the wrong way to kick myself in the ass. there is no making it up.. i will just try harder to have a better day tomorrow, and keep tracking.

week 16 day 2

i almost wasn't going to post today because i broke down and had a take out burger and it KILLED my numbers. but i figure good or bad, it's gotta be posted. *sigh* and then, last night was my quilty meeting and i had two cookies and two pieces of loaf and i there is no way i could even wing the numbers for those. so here is everything except those:

cal 1790.3 well under
fat 68.7 over 3.5 grams, not awful
fib 14, not fantastic
pro 95.2 bang on!
sodium 2796.5 *sigh* way over... by over 400 grams

week 16 day one

i am SICK people.. SICK! i am on antibiotics! lol.. i was mostly fine until last night and it really hit me. my neck and throat are KILLING me! and i went grocery shopping today, stupid. ah well.. i tracked and did pretty good, mostly due to my 2 hour nap and balanced out by hubby making dinner. i TOTALLY appreciate it! but it leaves me with no control and having to ask him very pointed questions after the fact to figure out how to track my caloires, etc. here goes:

cal 2215.4 over a bit, less than 100 calories, i can live with it
fat 63.5 perfect
fib 26 over, lovely
pro 109 finally got that up a bit
sod 2123 probably underestimated, i think i left out the marinade for the steak

week 16

I am so incredibly happy!! i weighed myself this morning and i have not only managed to undo all the weight i put on at retreat, lost some, put back on at easter and then went all premenstrual... i lost all of it and i am down one more pound!

weight -14lb

it is not quite where i am supposed to be given my timeline for the year... i should be at least three more pounds down for wekk 16, but i am very happy and i will catch up to where i should be within the next few weeks.

i need to try and lose 16 pounds in the next 10 weeks.. still sounds reasonable.

today:
cal 2098, under
fat 59, under
fib 19, just fine
pro 73, alright
sod 2059, under!

I ROCK! ;P

week 15

Alrighty.. i said this before, but getting back on track. i have roped my really good friend into tracking too, so we are now obsessively calling eachother to find out calories, and how the other is doing. It is REALLY helping! I am not yet back into the other parts of my ideals.. but i am getting there. just getting the eating back under will help alot, though.
I have also been premenstrual for over a week, which made things impossible. i had an interruption in my cycle last month, and my body is trying to sort itself out again and it has been hard on me. i have been craving everything! cranky, bloated, crampy and achy. It seems to have calmed down, fingers crossed.

yesterday:
cal 2129.7 perfect!
fat 53 under!!
fib 26 over!!
pro 68 ok
sod 2104 UNDER!! WOO HOO!!

today:
(assuming i can resist the cupcakes that my f^&king hubby decided to make)
cal 2036 great!
fat 62 great!
fib 18 good!
pro 55 alright
sod 2357 over a tiny bit.. still woo hoo!

I think next week i will try and slowly get back into some of my other objectives.

week 14 day 5

cal 1754 under
fat 69.3 over by 4g
fib 15.5 fine
pro 68 ok
sod 2401 close enough

good lordy it has been hard keeping my calories and that down. i am hungry all the time and trying to hard not to snack, and eat stupid things. my calories were under by about 4oo, but i was already over in my fat and sodium.. what the hell are you supposed to eat that has calories, no fat, but fibre and protein? i couldn't figure it out either LOL. steps were around 7,000 which isn't wonderful but i had a delicious 1.5 hour nap! it was amazing.

week 14 day 4

cal 2202 over 43, not bad
fat 105 over 40, not good
fib 16.6 under a bit
pro 96 under, but still ok
sod 2452 pretty close!!

and i had gymnastics with my son (which was a killer as usual, i was actually dripping with sweat), and my steps were 7,800. i am going to get back into the green tea in the mornings, it starts my day off mindfully.

week 14, day three

I think i need to start posting my tracking again for accountability. i took awhile, but i pieced my day together, and used my recipe caluclator to figure stuff out. things like homemade bread i find really hard to figure out and that website helps. assuming i get around to filling in the information :). so i did and here is yesterday

cal 2756.5
fat 94.3
fibre 12.1
protein 83.3
soduim 3596

i did alot of cleaning while plugged into my mp3 player, and the cleaning was incidental to the boogying that happened ;)... i put on 3,000 steps mostly thank you to 'single ladies'. my steps were 10,000 for the day.

week 14, day one

alright, i had lost two of four pounds i found on retreat, but then easter happened. *sigh* and back up two again.. so i am still -4 from where i was, which really means -9. it is still a minus, but i am unhappy.

i am back under control as of today, tracking (mostly), and i was SUPER productive in house stuff today!! 6 loads of laundry (all but one put away), stripped all beds and changed sheets, took my daughter's bed apart to clean underneath it, cleaned one of three bathrooms, cleaned my son's bedroom (he is only 2, it was pretty easy), took the kids out for lunch with friends, and entertained one of my friends and her boys. it is 8:30pm and i am at 9,000 steps.

Tomorrow's list is at least as long, plus i have some running around to do.

My house is still trying to recover from my mom's visit. i neglected all my cleaning for her entire two week visit, and another week. everything needs attention, all the laundry needs doing this week, the rooms and bathrooms are AWFUL. but it was a good visit. i hope to hell i can get all my stuff back on track this week and have a great weigh in for monday. fingers crossed.

btw, it wasn't a gall bladder attack that i had. i don't have gall stones. he thinks it might be my hiatus hernia *sigh*.. not sure, have to see the specialist.

week 13 day one

LOL ok, so i was on quilting retreat all weekend.. four days of sewing and eating bliss!! the result?? +4. which was expected. i totally cut loose and had zero control over what i was eating as each of the ladies was responsible for providing one meal for all of us. it was wonderful! and i put on four pound as a result. i am not beating myself up for it because i picked up my orthotic shoes today. then i found out i have to spend a week getting my feet used to them. LOL. i am gonna go put them on for my hour, right now.

week 12, day one

weight -13!!! mom has been here, and we went a little hog wild for the first few days, plus march break. i suppose i made up for it with all of our walking, because i am down another pound!! completely unexpectedly, very happy!

on an unhappy side bar, i had what i think was a gall bladder attack. holy christ that hurt!! hubby had his gall bladder taken out a few months ago, so i called him (he is out of town helping his mom pack up and move) and he agrees. i will have to go see the doctor.

mom and i are heading out of town on retreat for a few days later this week (i cannot tell you how excited i am!!). there are 7 ladies going all together, and everyone is to supply one meal for everyone. my diet this week will be entirely out of my control! i will have to make sure i go for walks so that i am not on my but in front of my sewing machine, packing on the pounds :)

week 11, day 1

weight -12 i am so stinking happy!! and totally on track for my year's goal. yay me! on the downside, it is march break. and my mom is flying in tonight for a two week visit. this means that my routine and eating are going to be off, and my life way off schedule. not that i am complaining, it is good to shake things up. but let's cross our fingers that nasty things don't happen to that -12

week 10 day 5

i am not off the wagon.. i didn't track today but i have been.. been good on green tea, been getting my fruits and veggies. i was told on wednesday that i have bronchitis, and today i took my boy in to see the doctor. he and i are both on anti-biotics. so my energy levels have been at an all time low. but i took the boy to his gymnastics, i ran after him for an hour. i was DEAD when we got home, but my friend K came over and she offered to help me put a bed together. my mom is flying in on monday so it needed to happen. so we did it. this was all yesterday and i am still trying to recover. my body is aching everywhere, but the knees... oh the knees.. if i could do without them, i totally would.

hubby asked me how long i am on the treadmill for a time, i told him 25 minutes and i did not volunteer that i have not been on it in weeks. i called my chiropractor to see when my othotics are coming in and it turns out they were waiting to hear from her, they had left a message for her that she never got. hopefully really soon.

week 10, day 2

weight -10
i did weigh myself yesterday but i was in a hurry and wasn't sure what it said so i had to do it again today.

cal 2021 (under 138)
fat 78.5 (over 13.5)
fib 21 (good)
pro 55 (under 41)
sod 3036 (over 700)

green tea - no
productive cleaning - so-so
water - yep
vegetables - yep
fruit - yep
treadmill - no, i hit the mall again..
stretching - *sigh no

today's sodium overload is thanks to subway. where i thought i was making good decisions. i knew the cold cuts were going to be a bit high.. 1200?? was double what i expected.next time, chicken breast i suppose.

week 10 day 1

no day that starts off with a speculum, should hold any accountability. didn't need to know that? i wish i could have skipped it too.. i saw the ob/gyn that delivered my son. she is amazing. i HATE paps!! i cannot stress that enough. i know that no ones likes them, but i HATE them! there are very few people with whom i am not in agony! and she is one of the few. it was quick, mild discomfort, then done. it threw my day off horribly though, and i am trying very hard to fight off a cold. in spite of this i managed to clean the bedrooms, put all the laundry in the laundry room and then quit for the day. LOL did you know that laundry will not take care of itself if you leave it conveniently in front of the machines?? so tomorrow will now be laundry day. along with everything else i was supposed to do today. i managed to track my calories, but pretty sure i missed something.. i can't think of what though.

cal 1449.6
fat 47.3
fib 14.8
pro 72.1
sod 2026

see my sodium?? that's why i think i missed something.. i came in under the radar for the first time ever!! maybe i missed an entire meal?? LOL

sat - new calories

i have new calorie guidelines as i lose weight. my new ones are:
calories: 2159
fat: 65
fibre: 22
protein: 96
sodium: 2310

here is today
cal 1998
fat 65
fib 36
pro 83
sod 2967

i may have to stop tracking that stupid sodium!! holy hell that is imposible!

week 9 day 5

green tea - yep
productive cleaning - no..
water - yep
vegetables - yep
fruit - yep
treadmill - yep, 25 min walk (1.5 min running) dist. 1.4
stretching - some, i had to leave to get my daughter from the bus

if i gain weight, i have already called my friend K to tell her that it will be her fault.. LOL.. my mom is coming out for a visit and she requested that i borrow a bread maker. we don't own one and have refused to do so because we will gain 400lb each. my friend K loaned me her bread maker today. i had it in my house for 10 minutes and i found myself pouring ingredients in it for a chocolate loaf. stupid. i was going to make raisin bread, but it would be lovely fresh as my daughter got off the bus and she hates raisins. i thought it would be cruel. idiot.

cal 2111
fat 89.4
fib 25.5
pro 87.5
sod 3841

week 9 day 4

green tea - yep
productive cleaning - a little, there wasn't much to do
water - yep
vegetables - yep
fruit - yep
treadmill - no, my boy and i had gymnastics today
stretching - no

cal 2398.7
fat 83.5
fib 23.8
pro 106.5
sod 3291.5

i think, that it doesn't matter what you order from mcdonalds, it will throw off your numbers for the day. i has to. the sodium alone, in any of their foods, will kill whatever good intentions you have for the day. but the children love it. i am not eating out again ever, it simply isn't worth it later in the day.

week 9 day 3

i am in SHOCK! my thyroid levels are totally fine. alright.. time to stop procrastinating i suppose. i wish i was feeling better, though. maybe my body is is fat loss shock from that 9 lb.. yah think??? is there such a thing?? LMAO

i totally took today off. my daughter was in school, my son was in daycare, and all my cleaning was pretty well done. nothing required my attention. it was beautiful. i sewed, i lay down, i went out for lunch with a friend, i read. i didn't go crazy, i was aware of calories but didn't write anything down.

week 9 day 2

first of all, damn knees!!! i walked once! and they are aching!! well, i did spend 2 hours walking around the mall in the first set of shitty shoes... they have become my new outside shoes. i think they are trying to tell me something.. but i am not quite getting it... hhmmm....

green tea - no
productive cleaning - check
water - 2 down
vegetables - check
fruit - check
treadmill - i think 2 hours lapping a mall should count here.
stretching - no

week 9 day 1

weight officially down 9lb.. i expect to hear later this week that my thyroid is WAY high.. i will deal with that when they phone me LOL.

green tea - check
productive cleaning - def big check
water - 2 down
vegetables - one
fruit - check
treadmill - check. 25 min walk, dist. 1.4
stretching - check

week 8 day 5

Ok.. On Monday the scale said I was down 6lb (which is actually up one from last week), on Tuesday it said down 7lb, and today it said down 9lb. I have no idea.

I have had a brutal week. I am not giving up. I am still trying. Sometimes family stuff has to take precedence and this week that is what happened. My daughter has been off school since Wednesday and we found out yesterday that she has bronchitis. I had a migraine on Tuesday that I was positive was trying to kill me, and today is the first day I have felt even half normal. I went and had my blood work done on Wednesday so it will take a week or so for the results of that.

Monday and today have been great cleaning days, so I think I will get my whole list done. This is a great feeling. Hubby took my van, I am housebound, and there are no excuses :)

sat

cal 1690
fat 62
fib 18
pro 67
sod 3235

week 7 day 5 - off the saddle, do they have music for that?

I don't even know what to write here.. except that i hope monday morning the scale is nicer to me than i deserve. i am not doing horrible things, but i am not doing what i should, that is for sure. i am tired all the time and i am worried that my thyroid levels are out of wack. they were already a little high and now i have lost a few pounds... but if i get the blood test and they change my meds, it throws me off for days!! and days!! i should do something about that.. maybe tomorrow. i have a req form.

week 7 day 2 - back in the saddle again, cue music

1) start my day off with green tea - i did!
2) productive house stuff - did good. not great, but good.
3) 3 glasses of water - yep
4) 2 vegetable servings - yep
5) 1 fruit serving - got it
6) 25 minutes treadmill; running 3 min consistently - i walked because of my knees, dist 1.47 and half of that at incline 1.
7) 3 muscle excerises, 2 reps - 2x10 incline pushups, 2x7 lunges, 2x15 crunches
8) 10 min stretching - yes. and boy did that feel good

i have only been medium productive around the house with cleaning but i got a bunch of little stuff done that been bugging me, went grocery shopping, took stuff to the used kids clothing store, made soup and did my exercising. so i feel good about it.

cal 1592
fat 48.7
fib 21.4
pro 72
sod 2288
these numbers are not really complete. i had my quilting meeting tonight and i partook of the treats that were offered :) and they were lovely. other than my sodium, i am sure i am under numbers.. or close.

my body is aching from a combination of haven't done my exercises in awhile, and holding up quilts. i am going to be out of commission tomorrow, i just know it.

week 7 day 1

weight -7
This math thing really works! and i find it better than calculating and tracking points. and the internet makes things stupid easy! so it is monday, but it is a holiday here. i will start up my treadmill and stuff tomorrow. today is an extended weekend, and while i am happy with my weight going down, i am looking forward to exersising again. i have taken a whole week off, and feel the need to move.

cal 2658
fat 125
fib 20
pro 106
sod 2673

um... had a bit of a cut loose i suppose.. lol

sun calories

i don't know if this is accurate. i looks way low, but i know i wrote everything down. part of the problem is that we went to my brother-in-laws house for dinner. his wife cooked a lovely roast beef dinner with mash, gravy, brocoli, carrots, bread and butter, and a valentine's cake with cream cheese icing for dessert. i came home and punched it all in the computer.. this is what i came up with for the day

cal 1677
fat 62.7
fib 10.4
pro 52.5
sod 1597.7

i am allowed far more than that, so even if it is way off, i should still be in my guidlines. *shrug*

sat calories

yeah i know.. i shouldn't be posting, but it is a great place to keep track of my daily calories.

cal 2028
fat 92
fib 19.3
pro 73
sod 2777

my quilty ladies took me out to lunch, i had shimp fettucci alfredo. it was worth every gram of fat!! :)

week 6 day 5

well, i did a test of stepping on the scale this morning.. still heading down so far, in spite of my not exercising. my knees are feeling ok today.. i think i will try walking next week for 25 minutes and i am feeling tight from not doing my stretches. hubby has been home sick for two days, which doesn't help my motivation at all, my son is still sick, and i am beyond tired. this is why you read my blog, isn't it? to hear me whining?? LOL i'll get past it once this week is over, i hope. tomorrow some of my quilty ladies are taking me on a shop hop around the area to a few stores i have never been to. i am very excited! i may need to intervenously absorb caffeine to make it through the day, however.

cal 1986
fat 79
fib 21
pro 97.5
sod 3332

my numbers would have been better if mcdonalds hadn't screwed up my order. i called them, angry.

week 6 day 4

Fired?? LOL my son is sick. bad cold, sick. big green snotty nose sick. which means he isn't sleeping well, which means i am not sleeping well. i am exhausted all day. i am not being very good at tracking my calories this week. it is hard when hubby makes dinner because he hates to keep track of what he is putting in and unless i am hovering over his shoulder and constantly asking and writing down, then he doesn't tell me. plus, he guestimates. which doesn't workt when you are trying to track stuff. i don't know how many calories i ate. i didn't do much cleaning, but did beds and stuff.

week 6 day 3

i have had an insane day today! i took my daughter to school, took my son to daycare, and went to the church for sewday. i was there from 9:15 until 2. i left there and went to a fabric store to buy a border for a quilt i was working on. i left there to pick up my son from daycare, rushed to my daughter's school to catch her before she went on the bus. took them over to the mall to get them a snack, took her to piano, took him to the library with me where i got in trouble from the security guard because little stinker was making way too much noise. honestly, not much i can do about it. left there to get her from piano, came home. as soon as hubby came home i lay down and actually slept for half an hour or so. then i had to leave for my quilting executive meeting (some goofball made me secretary of the guild LOL) and i didn't get home until half an hour ago. craziness.

calories 2046
fat 81.5
fibre 13
protein 39
sodium 2160

week 6 day 2

i am feeling unwell, my knees ache all the time. i don't think there will be any treadmill this week. i have been a cleaning demon all day today, though, because i want to take tomorrow off completely and go to sewday. The church that my quilting guild meets has a sewday the second wednesday of the month and i plan to be there. gotta run, more cleaning to do :)

week 6 day 1

weight -5
woo hoo! down one more pound. that is five pounds in five weeks.. mostly on track. slow and steady wins the race?? LOL

1) start my day off with green tea - i did!!
2) productive house stuff - not bad
3) 3 glasses of water - two
4) 2 vegetable servings - yep
5) 1 fruit serving - yep
6) 25 minutes treadmill; running 3 min consistently - no
7) 3 muscle excerises, 2 reps - no
8) 10 min stretching - no

my knees are hurting all the time. i saw my chiropractor yesterday to talk to her about inserts and shoes. i have to do something, but there is just no money for shoes. what to do?

caloric intake today

cal 1743
fat 70.75
fib 17.5
pro 67
sod 3045

wow, i need to do something about my sodium! both friday and today i know exactly which item kicked me over. but in both instances, i had eaten the item and then went to add my numbers and just about shit at the amount of sodium. need to look first LOL

week 5 day 5 - introducing calories woo hoo!

1) start my day off with green tea - yep, followed shortly thereafter, with coffee
2) productive house stuff - yep, finished off my list
3) 3 glasses of water - 2 done
4) 2 vegetable servings - yes
5) 1 fruit serving - yep
6) 25 minutes treadmill; running 3 min consistently - i only did 20 min, no running. but the fact that i got on the treadmill at all today is amazing!! dist. 1.15
7) 3 muscle excerises, 2 reps - nah
8) 10 min stretching - yep

ok.. food info.
eaten allowance
calories - 1816 2255
fat - 66 74
fibre - 14.6
protein - 94 112
sodium - 2310 2310

i found some fascinating sites for calculating caloric allowances and even recipe calorie calculators. fascinating! here is the recipe calculator.. i saved it and could see using it alot!
http://recipes.sparkpeople.com/recipe-calculator.asp

have a good weekend all :)

interim posting

so i am a maniac at stepping on the scale. i do it at least once a day, but i don't take them too seriously. i know that through the week, your weight fluctuates, and even more so through the day. However, if i manage to step on the scale in the morning, before eating anything, i pay attention to it as a marker of how i am doing generally. it looks like my weight may be creeping up a pound or so. this is frustrating, but i won't really know until monday. i was wandering around the internet yesterday and saw an article on weight loss mistakes that most people make. i didn't really read the article, but i did notice something in passing. the biggest mistake people make is in not doing the math. not doing the calculations of how much they take in versus how much they burn. i HATE writting down everything that i eat. i did weight watchers years ago, and i found it painful! it felt like obsessing over every morsel. i understand the theory and agree in theory. but the practise is awful. i am going to give it a try. but i won't bore you with a daily food diary because that would be painful too :) i will just give numbers for the end of the day. i really don't want this to feel like a full time job and i don't want this to be painful to read.

on another note.. i am less motivated to exercise since my confession to hubby. why is this? why on earth would i be more motivated when it was a secret? how wierd is that?

i will do my regular post later today..

week 5 day 4

today is my gymnastics day, so no treadmill for me. plus, my knees are killing me again. i confessed my treadmill use to hubby so i would be able to get new shoes. he suggested a podiatrist, which i had been thinking about anyways. i booked an appointment for that. it is in 2 weeks. not sure what do to about my treadmill stuff. i will try it again tomorrow and see how my knees fare.

1) start my day off with green tea - again, needed coffee.
2) productive house stuff - not too bad.. but not great
3) 3 glasses of water - one down so far
4) 2 vegetable servings - one down so far
5) 1 fruit serving - got it
6) 25 minutes treadmill; running 3 min consistently - not today
7) 3 muscle excerises, 2 reps - don't need it either with gymnastics.. arms are killing me.
8) 10 min stretching - no. :(

week 5 day 3 - good day

1) start my day off with green tea - missed that one.. was needing coffee!
2) productive house stuff - yes, been a great day
3) 3 glasses of water - yep
4) 2 vegetable servings - not yet, will update I GOT AT LEAST ONE, IF NOT TWO
5) 1 fruit serving - not yet YES. CANTALOPE
6) 25 minutes treadmill; running 3 min consistently - oh yeah! ran 4 min. dist 1.5
7) 3 muscle excerises, 2 reps - yep. squats, 10x2; tricep pushup 5x2; crunch 15x2
8) 10 min stretching - yep

my body was hurting on the treadmill.. all over. feet, back, knees.. i preservered. and had a friend come visit, but still been good at cleaning for the first time all week LOL
MY KNEES ARE HURTING AGAIN, PRETTY BAD. FRUSTRATED. I CONFESSED MY TREADMILL USE TO HUBBY IN THE HOPES OF GETTING NEW SHOES. GOING TO SEE A PODIATRIST FIRST. HOPE TO KEEP UP THE TREADMILL STUFF, DEPENDS ON MY KNEES *SIGH*

week 5 day 2 - weak day

it wasn't a great day for anything today. i wasn't feeling fantastic, but was alright. i had some visiting to do in the morning, which drops my productivity a lot! but i like getting out. it really doesn't take much for me to get cabin fever.

1) start my day off with green tea - yes
2) productive house stuff - no.. not really
3) 3 glasses of water - yep.. pretty sure
4) 2 vegetable servings - yep
5) 1 fruit serving - yep, thank you lychee
6) 25 minutes treadmill; running 3 min consistently - nope.
7) 3 muscle excerises, 2 reps - nope
8) 10 min stretching - i did this at night before bed. i was feeling tight

i was geared up to do my treadmill and stuff, but then i had to fight with my son for almost 2 hours to get him to sleep, and by the time we were done i had a major headache and was totally unmotivated. sadly.

Februray's ideals - week 5 day 1

first of all, still -4lb, however i am on my "special lady time" so hopefully it drops a bit more for next week.

ok, so new month means a new list of ideals and these are what i am thinking. i added quite a few more, but i still think it's do-able. if i have to reassess, i will do it in two weeks, but let's see how this goes.

1) start my day off with green tea
2) productive house stuff
3) 3 glasses of water
4) 2 vegetable servings
5) 1 fruit serving
6) 25 minutes treadmill; running 3 min consistently
7) 3 muscle excerises, 2 reps
8) 10 min stretching

so far, i havent' done the green tea, i forgot. LOL... but i was doing it last week. i will have to start that tomorrow.

1) start my day off with green tea - i didn't start with it, but had it after breakfast
2) productive house stuff - yeah, not so much today but not bad
3) 3 glasses of water - yep
4) 2 vegetable servings - yes, sir.. i have given up on the raw thing for now
5) 1 fruit serving - yep, lychee!! yum!!
6) 25 minutes treadmill; running 3 min consistently - yep, ran 4:15, dist 1.6 mi
7) 3 muscle excerises, 2 reps - no..
8) 10 min stretching - yep

i didn't get in my muscle stuff because as soon as i stepped off the treadmill and stopped my mp3 player, i heard my son screaming. i had to run into his room, calm him down and help him get to sleep. Right after that my parents called. by the time we got off the phone my muscles were plenty cooled down. tomorrow.

week 4 day 5

last chance to get in a second treadmill for the week.

1) 20 minutes on the treadmill - oh yeah! 8:30pm before i got a chance, but i did it!
2) 10 minutes of stretching, muscle activity - yes to stretching, no muscle stuff
3) 2 glasses of water - yep
4) no reading or crafts in the day, more productive cleaning - oh yeah, i was good!
5) one serving of raw vegetable - ok, not perfect.. i suck at this vegetable thing

i went out shopping this morning (then came back and composed a complaint letter which i will be sending shortly), came back and started in on my cleaning. i re-did my cleaning list and it is working much better. i have been great on my cleaning all week and because i did the brunt of it on monday and tuesday, the fact that i did none on wed or thurs isn't a big deal. let's hope i am down in weight for Monday! have a good weekend :)

week 4 day 4

i think i have a new critera for exercise on thursdays. i just signed my two year old son up for gymnastics. it is a parent and tot class. it is an incredible workout for me. i spent most of that hour sweating my balls off. and half of that was because i was running after him because he didn't want to do what they are doing. i don't need my treadmill after that! serious!! but i should have done my stretches. i am hurting.

week 4 day 3

HOLY CHRIST! ok.. so today is my son's daycare day and my list of stuff to do was growing rapidly. i had a dentist appointment for a cleaning at 9:40 and then i was going to be off and running. well, it wasn't just for a cleaning. i was there for over 2 hours!! i had a cavity beside a filling so they were going to redo the filling. it was on the top, at the back. the very very back of my last tooth. he had to raze off the last two points of my molar just to get at the fucker. i came home and lay down. that was horrible. i did none of my stuff, exercise included.

week 4 day 2

not feeling good today. achy. gonna take it a bit easy today

1) 20 minutes on the treadmill - nope
2) 10 minutes of stretching, muscle activity - yep
3) 2 glasses of water - yep
4) no reading or crafts in the day, more productive cleaning - oh yeah!! did great!
5) one serving of raw vegetable - sadly, not as good LOL

week 4 day 1

weight -4

on schedule so far.. stomache flu can sure help you along the weightloss path. but i have recovered enough that i have been eating normally for a few days now and i feel confident in claiming that 4lb. I am back on track for today, boy did i notice a difference in not doing my excersises! i was crankier, slept poorly, tired all the time. let's hope after a day or two of exercising again, that all that goes away. i wanted to write down my loss early. i haven't started my stuff yet, i will update again later today after it is all done, and i have been starting on what my ideas for february's daily stuff should be.

1) 20 minutes on the treadmill - done! three one minute runs, dist 1.25
2) 10 minutes of stretching, muscle activity - yep. boy, did that feel good!
3) 2 glasses of water - nearly UPDATE - DONE :)
4) no reading or crafts in the day, more productive cleaning - good so far, more to do TOTALLY! I WAS AMAZING TODAY :)
5) one serving of raw vegetable - WOOHOO! ASSUMING ONE STICK OF CELERY QUALIFIES AS A SERVING LOL

uugghh

waiting for my tummy to stop hating me!!!

Week 3 day 3

recovering

week 3 - day 2

stomach flu. puking.

week 3 day 1

weight - same, -1

1) 20 minutes on the treadmill - yes, including 3 min 15 sec of running-dist 1.2
2) 10 minutes of stretching, muscle activity - a little more than 10, including 10 incline pushups, 2x7 walking lunges, and 10 squats
3) 2 glasses of water - just finishing the second now.
4) no reading or crafts in the day, more productive cleaning - perfect!
5) one serving of raw vegetable - *sigh* still in the works

i suck at eating veggies! especially raw ones *sigh* i am going to have to work harder on that. i have gotten all my cleaning done, plus grocery shopping, and had a friend over for a bit. its been a good day :)

week 2 day 4 - mental case

1) 20 minutes on the treadmill - 12 min. incl 2 min running.. read below
2) 10 minutes of stretching, muscle activity - no.
3) 2 glasses of water - yep.
4) no reading or crafts in the day, more productive cleaning - so so
5) one serving of raw vegetable - ye

i am so mental! i have made up my mind that i am not telling hubby that i have started working out again. he has no idea how to be supportive, he is very critical so it isn't worth it. today i knew there was a possibility he was coming home for lunch, but at 1 there was still no sign of him. got my son to sleep, and hopped on the treadmill. I was 12 min into it, ran twice and was gearing up for number three when i saw him pull in the driveway. in the 10 seconds it took him to finish parking and come into the house i: turned off the treadmill, unplugged it, folded it up, rolled it back across the room, took off my mp3 player and threw it on the dresser, took off my shoes and stashed them in the closet with the mp3 player arm band, ran into the bathroom, turned on the shower, stripped and got in. I can feel the vibration of the front door shutting when i am in the shower, that's where i was when he came in.... LOL but it threw me off and i didn't do my stretching.. i am feeling it.

week 2 day 3 - back on track

1) 20 minutes on the treadmill - done, i ran 2 one minute intervals with a better pair of running shoes that i knew i had somewhere, and finally found. knees seem to be fine. distance was 1.2 miles
2) 10 minutes of stretching, muscle activity - yep, including 1x10 incline push-ups and 2x7 walking lunges. could have done more but had to leave to pick up my son from daycare.
3) 2 glasses of water - yep.
4) no reading or crafts in the day, more productive cleaning - well, no reading or crafts.. no cleaning either LOL, i spent the day shopping with a friend and then gorged on lunch at the mandarin buffet *sigh*
5) one serving of raw vegetable - pending... :)

week 2 day 2

problem. my knee is still hurting, even at rest. i was talking to my sister yesterday and her knee is hurting too. turns out she grabbed her old running shoes, the support is gone. i have to admit that i have been using crappy $30 walmart shoes. She wasn't happy with me LOL. i have my son in daycare tomorrow, i think i am going to have to check out new shoes. i am not sure if i am going to go on the treadmill today or not. i hope to, but hate that my knees are hurting. i have been trying to do this without telling hubby, but if i need new shoes not sure how that will work.

One Down - in more ways than one

weight -1
week one, done

1) 20 minutes on the treadmill - done, i only walked. dist. 1.1mi
2) 10 minutes of stretching, muscle activity - yep, and 2x10 incline pushups and 2x7 walking lunges.
3) 2 glasses of water - yep, working on number three
4) no reading or crafts in the day, more productive cleaning - yep.
5) one serving of raw vegetable - cut and waiting for after my shower.

i find it harder to just walk on the treadmill and i was not anxious to get on it.. maybe it's that running breaks it up? not sure, but my knee is still bugging me and the lunges may not have helped :). my cleaning is almost all done, i just have laundry in the works.

Day Five Hiccup

1) 20 minutes on the treadmill - i can't, not today. i have done great for 4 days, but i am not feeling good today. my knees are hurting, i am beyond exhausted, and headache. no perfect score for this week, but it isn't about perfection.
2) 10 minutes of stretching, muscle activity - i think i actually need to do the stretching, i will update later if i do it UPDATE: I DID IT AND FELT MUCH BETTER
3) 2 glasses of water - one down, one to go UPDATE: THREE DOWN! HELPED ME FEEL BETTER
4) no reading or crafts in the day, more productive cleaning - nope.
5) one serving of raw vegetable - yep :) i did it at lunch.

my body is hurting today and i don't want to force it too much. it is going to take time to do this and do i properly and i don't want it to be a fight. I was planning on stopping for the weekend anyways, i am disappointed that i couldn't do today, but i will be back at it on monday.

Day Four

1) 20 minutes on the treadmill - done! yay! i even managed to run for 2 minutes.
2) 10 minutes of stretching, muscle activity - 10 minutes of stretching plus walking lunges
3) 2 glasses of water - yep, actally at three and still going
4) no reading or crafts in the day, more productive cleaning - shockingly, yep
5) one serving of raw vegetable - not yet LOL

Today has been painful! I wanted to sit on my butt and stay there all day!! Amazingly, i didn't do it. I finally ook our xmas tree down, went shopping for a couple of things, did two loads of laundry, put away a load from yesterday, and did my treadmill! i get a huge HOORAH for today!

Day Three

1) 20 minutes on the treadmill - done! i had to fix my treadmill first, and i had to buy alan wrenches first.. so i bought them, and fixed it. what a dream now! i was worried i was going to wrench my knee with it slipping like that!
2) 10 minutes of stretching, muscle activity - only 5 minutes because i had to get my son from daycare, but i made sure to get in the treadmill and at least some stretching, no muscle work though.
3) 2 glasses of water - yep and still drinking
4) no reading or crafts in the day, more productive cleaning - not so much productive cleaning, but no reading or crafts.
5) one serving of raw vegetable - i am eating a raw pepper as i type :)

day 2

that numbering system is going to get old soon

1) 20 minutes on the treadmill - done! and today i ran 4 minutes
2) 10 minutes of stretching, muscle activity - i did it
2x10 incline push ups against my nightstand
2x6 tricep push ups against our blanketbox
2x6 walking lunges
3) 2 glasses of water - done, and still drinking
4) no reading or crafts in the day, more productive cleaning - good so far, still have more, but will probably update this later today
5) one serving of raw vegetable - i never did get yesterdays and haven't done it today yet.

i couldn't wait to get on the treadmill today! but my belt slips while i am running so i have to hold on to the rails.. i need to look into that.

UPDATE: i got all my cleaning done, plus i hiked out in the snow pulling my two year old son on the sled to get my daughter from the bus stop instead of driving.. then i had to come home and make dinner.. beyond exhausted!! and i found out how to fix the belt slipping issue, i just need to pick up an alan key set tomorrow. i really should have my own anyway ;) and i had not one, but two servings of raw veggies..

day one

1) 20 minutes on the treadmill - done!! whoo hoo! and i ran three minutes of that, not consecutive.
2) 10 minutes of stretching, muscle activity - 6 minutes.. need to look up ideas
3) 2 glasses of water - i got three!!
4) no reading or crafts in the day, more productive cleaning - done!!
5) one serving of raw vegetable - ok.. 4/5.. mind you, the day isn't over yet

i think i did pretty good today.. i was not feeling the treadmill, but i got my stuff on, mp3 player ready and then couldn't get the treadmill working. i looked up a similar model on the internet, went to trouble shooting and the VERY first thing on it fixed my problem. LOL.. then halfway through my walk, a buddy of my hubby's came by to drop some stuff off. but he wasn't here long and i went back to it. i am feeling sore, probably from the running bits, but good.

i didn't get all my cleaning done, but most of it. all i wanted to do was sit and read, but i didn't! i am pretty proud :)

-60, here we go

Let's hope to hell this goes somewhere!

The goal is -60 by the end of the year but this isn't a new years resolution.. i want to lose 60 pounds in a year, and the calendar year was just too easy.

To get there, my weekday January rules are:
1) 20 minutes on the treadmill, hopefully running part of it by the end of the month
2) 10 minutes of stretching, muscle activity
3) 2 glasses of water
4) no reading or crafts in the day, more productive cleaning.
5) one serving of raw vegetable

I want to keep this do-able, within reason and easy to remember.. the blog is my accountablility even if no one ever reads it but me :)

I will post my daily progress on these 5 things, and a weekly weigh in. Not with weight, but hopefully in negative numbers. My starting point is only relevant to me, the point is loss.