Today i was at a water park with my kids and one of their friends for 3 hours. they had hats and sunscreen, shade time, the whole nine yards... no this isn't what you are thinking, i did take care of me too. I had a hat, sunscreen, shade time. after their lunch break i made sure to re-apply sunscreen to all of us. the mistake i made was when i re-applied my sunscreen, i was wearing my tank top which i was not wearing when we were around the water. this is not the life lesson.
the life lesson is that i was going to post a picture of my sunburn on my back and when i took the pictures with the auto timer i got a brilliantly clear view of exactly why i starting this blog. my ass! my fat rolls! jesus christ save me from myself!! yes the 14 lb that i lost and have managed to keep off despite the presence of my mother in law in the house is great, but a far cry from where i had hoped to be at this point, and no where near where i need to be.
do you know what my problem is? do you care?? LOL... i dont care if you care, i am gonna tell you anyways. i forget that i am way overweight. in my head i am average weight and don't look bad at all. in my head, because i am not fat i don't need to watch what i am eating or exercise. the problem is that in my head is, sadly, only in my head. when i catch sight of myself in a mirror, or like today with the camera, it takes me aback, i am shocked, and then i say "oh. yeah. i forgot. stupid."
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