Wednesday

SO my friend called me again and asked if i wanted to go for another walk. my shin muscles were killing me!! but i said ok.. uphill was fine, downhill damn near killed me! we took a different route that google maps said was 6 kilometers, which is 3.728 miles and i figured that i averaged 16.09 minutes per mile, but i don't think that can be accurate so i am not going to put much stock in it.

happily i had a massage booked for that afternoon and she also did acupunture on my shins... here's hoping i can WALK tomorrow LOL..

btw - the scale was UP this morning.. pissed off

monday

i don't know what else to call this post cause i have so totally lost track of.... well, everything. LOL.... i was going to try and exercise today, but my morning was crazy busy, my boy didn't nap early and had phones calls etc that HAD to be made. by the time circumstances were good, i had to get my daughter from her bus stop.

then after dinner struck... and i felt like being outside. it was beautiful and sunny. then my friend decided to join me. we had an awesome walk! 55 minutes at a good pace. i got a good workout, not sure if my friend did or not... but like she said "any exercise is good exercise".

i have no idea how much distance we covered, i will take the care out today to try and figure it out. won't be perfect, but will give me an idea.

UPDATE: google maps says i walked 5.2 kilometers, which is 3.231 miles. that averaged 17 minutes a mile.

wednesday weigh in

ok.. so i am still down.. weigh in says -9 overall... not horrible.. no where near where i had hoped to be but i got back on the treadmill again today

17:17 minute mile. total distance in 30 min 1.67 miles

i want to get in one more day before i start running.. so hopefully that can start on monday. i am also going to copy my friends' pilates dvds for the in between days, they sound brutal... lol...

lost track of weeks.. crawling sheepishly back on wagon

LOL ok.. so things have been crazy and it is SO HARD to get back on the wagon when you have so completely fallen off... i am still down, but not sure how much, i will weigh in on wednesday..

due to a seemingly harmless conversation i had with a friend this morning, i got back on the treadmill to day.. she wants to start her exercising too so we are going to egg eachother on.

i did 30 min on treadmill, mostly 3.6, no running.. i did a mile in 18:13 and my final distance was 1.59 miles. so these are my beginning guidelines. i would really like to get back on it wed and friday and get at least those numbers. fingers crossed i can do it.

week 10 wednesday weigh in

just so you know, i have not given up.. but i haven't been able to track absolutely, so i can't really post numbers. i am tracking, though. exercise hasn't happened yet, i'm hoping to hell i can get on that soon!

weight -1, total -12

week 9 - Friday

number 1: calories
cal 86%
fat 124%
fib 64%
pro 65%
sod 92%

it is amazing what these numbers show. i am under in everything except fat, which says i am making poor choices in my food (duh, i had a filet o' fish) and i had decided i had terminally fucked up for the day and wasn't going to track. i changed my mind, and it really wasn't that bad, i don't know why i was so upset..

number 2: water - i got at least one..
number 3: green tea - no
number 4: exercise - nope
exercise starts monday. no excuses

week 9 - Thursday

number 1: calories
cal 99%
fat 104%
fib 86%
pro 94%
sod 113%

number 2: water - i got at least one..
number 3: green tea - no
number 4: exersize - nope

week 9 - wednesday

well, what did i do to celebrate another 2 pounds to go? with a stupid poutine, that's how... i knew it was bad, but when i looked it up after, i was SHOCKED! nearly half my daily fat, a good chunk of my calories, but the sodium!! holy christ, the sodium! i am going to have to spend my week recovering from that one treat

number 1: calories
cal 91%
fat 121%
fib 91%
pro 120%
sod 189%

why, oh why, must calories, fat and sodium taste SO GOOD!!

number 2: water - yeah
number 3: green tea - no :(
number 4: exersize - nope

week 9 - wednesday weigh in

wierdness! i suppose my scale knew that today was my real weigh in day? or just flukey...

weight - 2, total -11 and back on track for my monthly goals.

2lb in two days? something is hinky.. let go and enjoy the moment :D

week 9 - Tuesday

number 1: calories
cal 75%
fat 77%
fib 100%
pro 88%
sod 75%

number 2: water - not entirely certain
number 3: green tea - yep
number 4: exersize - nope

week 9 - Monday

number 1: calories
cal 75%
fat 98%
fib 36%
pro 108%
sod 107%
these numbers don't include the homemade cabbage roll casserole my mother in law made. i have no idea how to add that in. she doesn't use salt and i didnt add any, so the sodium is fine, but i don't know what kind of ground meat she used or what else she put in it. i did the best i could.

number 2: water - yep
number 3: green tea - yep
number 4: exersize - this is a sticky one. i am still sick and medicated so i don't want to do anything too stressful, but i also went out to our mall for 3 hours and walked at least half of that time. it wasn't much of a walk, more of a saunter, but i was moving constantly and i wasn't at home sitting on my ass. does it count or no?

month end weigh in and assessment

weigh in: -.5 for a total of -9, 1 pound off from my monthly goal

assessment: this was not one of my more successful months. kind of a disappointment but not surprising considering my spotty tracking and exercise. i have had a terrific amount of stress, and a sinus/ear infection. i have reason enough, but i have to not let that kind of stuff kick me down. i need to be a priority too, and i need to lose this weight to be healthy. it has to go.

goals: i am not going to change my goals too much for this month, my big goal is to better for March than i did for Feb.

goals for weeks 9, 10, 11, 12, and 13
number 1: tracking calories, etc.
number 2: min. 2 glasses water
number 3: one mug of green tea a day
number 4: exersize three times a week, with 5 min stretching

week 8 - weigh in

well, the scale said the same thing it did last week.

weight -8.5

at least it didn't go up..

week 8 - monday

good thing i got on that treadmill on saturday. today is a holiday here, so there was no treadmilling. hoping to HELL i can on the thing tomorrow at naptime. calories etc, i haven't put my numbers all together yet, but i have a speed bump. i went to the show and had popcorn. i put the topping on, so i was moderate... but have no idea what to give that.. i may post my numbers and just add a proviso :)

i got my water in and my green tea.

cal 69%
fat 74%
fib 40%
pro 82%
sod 83%
plus the popcorn that i can't account for.

week 7 - sat

i don't usually post on the weekend, but i had to give myself a big 'ol pat on the back. i was motivated to jump on the treadmill and then i followed through!! 25 min, mostly 3.5 and 3.4 dist. 1.34

yay me :)

week 7 - Friday

sorry i stopped posting. my wednesday weigh in was down another half a pound. any loss is a great thing. so i am happy about it. my son has had a lingering minor health issue that has (hopefully) come to a head this week, and my stress levels have been through the roof. i have been sporatically tracking, but paying close attention. i am confident that my numbers are fine, and i needed to cut myself some slack this week. i have been up on my water, but my green tea has been bad. my exersice, i managed twice this week on the treadmill. i am so proud of myself that i got on that treadmill today.

I am hoping that monday things will have calmed down and am prepared to go back to all my steps after my breathing room.

weight -8.5

week 7 - Monday

number 1: calories
cal 91%
fat 136%
fib 91%
pro 67%
sod 74%

i think i have kicked sodiums ass!!! look at that! i am awesome! of course, you must look at the nasty fat number, but that reflects my valentines chocolate binge, which i guestimated, but at least i attempted to track it!

number 2: water - oh yeah!

number 3: green tea - you gotcha!!

number 4: exercise - yay! treadmill 25 min, 20 min at least at 3.4, but i tried to do as much 3.5 as i could and i was playing with incline...

what a day!! all criteria conquered!!

week 7 - weekend review and dieters nightmare

happy valentines day all... the dieter's nightmare... i'm not dieting, i get it, but hubby still bought me enough chocolate to do some serious damage to my 'eating plan'

saturday i did a workshop and had no control over what was for lunch and didn't exactly try and keep my portion down, but didn't have seconds of anything, and only had a small amount of dessert. for dinner, one of hubby's uncles sent over the most amazing curry, no way to track it, but he did make it. couldn't be too bad, could it?

sunday i made fantastic choices! and for dinner had the leftovers from hubby's uncle. no snacking at all.

the scale this morning (not weigh in, just peeking) had a nasty story for me, but "special lady time" is returning very soon, i can FEEL it... i will be exercising today especially since i only got one in last week.

week 6 - friday

i didn't track. i started off great, but then had a crazy busy day of running around and i dealt with my son's freak out by emotionally eating, didn't exercise, it was a horrible downward spiral and i ended up feeling like crap because of my stupid choices, plus i had a nap that made me feel even worse. i can't even piece my day back together. there will be days like this.. i get it..

week 6 - thursday

number 1: calories
cal 77%
fat 100%
fib 109%
pro 122%
sod 96%

number 2: water - yep.

number 3: green tea - yep.

number 4: exercise - no, :(

i had not one, but two serving of avocado. high in fat, but higher in benefits and i didn't end up going over my allowance, so i'm pretty happy with my day

week 6 - wednesday

number 1: calories
cal 102%
fat 120%
fib 77%
pro 79%
sod 109%
Lordy, i was in a CRANKY mood, even being all by myself. i even paced around the house chanting, "cranky, nasty, cranky, nasty." LOL! so i made some pretty stupid choices. i even decided not to track, but i changed my mind.. it isn't a pretty picture, but i tracked it anyway...

number 2: water - that i did.

number 3: green tea - sadly, no.

number 4: exercise - no, and i had wanted to, but i squandered my time in the morning (with a 90 minute bath) and spent the rest of the day running around like a crazy woman trying to fit everything in. i am hoping to make up for it

week 6 - weigh in wednesday

down 2 more pounds. i am -8!! right on track.
if i had really looked at my scale picture from monday, which i only did today, i wouldn't have freaked out so much. i don't think i looked very carefully... but that's ok.. it's far easier to behave on a monday, tuesday before weighing in that it is on a saturday, sunday.

i have to say, i love the idea of pictures of the scale. i am not going to post them, or even my weight. i mentioned it last year on this same journey and the reasons.. maybe i will post about it again... but not right now.

week 6 - tuesday

number 1: calories
cal 87.5%
fat 115%
fib 98%
pro 102%
sod 65%
a very nasty friend of mine introduced me to a deadly sensation called a sweet georgia brown. it is pecans, caramel, and chocolate! i had two which equalled almost a third of my ENTIRE days worth of fat!! if i had only had one, it would have been totally worth it!! they were amazing, however they blew my fat numbers for the day! don't ever eat one! you will spend every moment of every day plotting to buy some in secret. no, i haven't broken down..... yet.....

number 2: water - 2 glasses, i'm pretty sure.

number 3: green tea - yep, first thing in the morning

number 4: exercise - i can't even pretend i did any :) s'ok..

week 6 - monday

i know today is supposed to be weigh in, but i have decided to bend to peer pressure (based on the fact that the one blog i read where they track, they weigh in on wednesdays and in light of the fact that my scale did not reflect my efforts this weekend i am permanently changing my weigh in day) and i am changing my weigh in day to wednesday. this will give me a day or two after the weekend for weigh in. i know i sound totally flippant, but i really do mean it.

number 1: calories
cal 90%
fat 67%
fib 103%
pro 111%
sod 93%

number 2: water - 3 glasses

number 3: green tea - i'm going to make it now

number 4: exercise - not only did i clean my fridge (which again my friend assures me does not count, but i strenuously disagree), went grocery shopping (which should also count when you do it with a 3 year old), but just to make sure i hopped on my treadmill for 25 min (20 min at 3.4). very proud of myself.

week 5 - friday

i really thought i had written my day down and i was going to fill it in later.. turns out i didn't write a thing down! but that may be a good thing because i tried to medicate a migraine with grease, fat, sugar, chocolate and sodium. just so you know, it wasn't successful... LOL. but seriously all bets are off when my head hurts like that, i may have made bad choices, but i didn't pig out, didn't go crazy. i would consider it a win-lose thing... LOL

water, i got my water in

exercise... my friend says housework doesn't count as "exercise" i think it should especially if you spend two hours at it. no vacuuming or anything, but it was intense cleaning. so i give myself half marks. at least i was moving and not sitting on my ass eating.

green tea.. i don't recall

week 5 - thursday

number 1: calories
cal 99%
fat 96%
fib 95%
pro 124%
sod i'm afraid to even calculate, never mind post it

number 2: water - 2 glasses

number 3: green tea - missed that one :(

number 4: not my day for it.

week 5 - wednesday

number 1: calories
cal 114%
fat 104%
fib 152%
pro 109%
sod 88%
well, not exactly stellar, but hopefully my week evens it out

number 2: water - 2 glasses

number 3: green tea - check :)

number 4: yep, shovelled the nasty heavy snow for 25 min.. :)

week 5 - tuesday

number 1: calories
cal 78%
fat 78%
fib 104%
pro 81%
sod 104%

number 2: water - 2 glasses

number 3: green tea - check :)

number 4: not today.

week 5 - monday

number 1: calories
cal 80%
fat 62%
fib 100%
pro 119%
sod 99%

number 2: water - i got at least 2 glasses, i think more

number 3: check green tea

number 4: 25 min treadmill speed was 3.5 for 20 min.

i did awesome! everything perfect.. just have to keep it up :)

week 5 weigh in

ok, the whole down but up thing i was doing with my weigh ins is starting to lose me. it's my system and I am getting confused. i am just going to use last years beginning weight and go from there..

so my weigh in is -6

if the goal is to lose 60lb starting with last years beginning weight, 60/12=5. this means each month i need to lose 5 pounds. this doesn't sound like much, but i mean for this to become permanent, which means making changes that i can live with. also my thyroid issues make it hard to lose weight and ridiculously easy to gain.

this means i am on track, but need to step it up to lose 5lb by the end of february.

goals for weeks 5, 6, 7, & 8
number 1: tracking calories, etc.
number 2: min. 2 glasses water
number 3: one mug of green tea a day
number 4: exersize three times a week

week 4 saturday

i don't usually track maniacally on weekends, but i have a few days that i didn't track so i need to be on the ball... so here is today

cal 85%
fat 101%
fibre 50%
protein 91%
sodium 118%

water wasn't great at all today, same with exersize

week 4 - friday

i am fighting "special lady time".. i am tracking but my husband took my computer with my target numbers, websites, and my tracking spreadsheets. so i have spent some time this morning putting some numbers together and i can hopefully fill it in. i will just add them to this post. also, i did some more digging on protein and radically adjusted my target number, which makes sense.. it really shouldn't be THAT hard. hopefully Monday will show some good results, and i will have some monthly goals. have a great weekend :)

tuesday
cal 73%
fat 107%
fibre 60%
protein 55%
sodium 76%
- this does not reflect my movie night which included a handful of a bunch of stuff that i couldn't begin to put together.. not an overly successful day

wed
couldn't calculate... too many things i couldn't put numbers together for

thurs
i didn't even write it down LOL

friday
cal 78%
fat 90%
fibre 68%
protein 88%
sodium 88%
- woo hoo! i concider this very successful!! happy with it

week 4 - monday

number one: eating - YAY!! i did AWESOME! I MET MY PROTEIN!! that was HARD!
calories 101%
fat 88%
fibre 170%
protein 100%
sodium 112%

number two: exercise - i did my dancing for 15-20 min..

number three: water - more than three glasses!

i rock..

week 4 - monday

alright.. i am up a couple of pounds but gauging by the zits on my face, and my totally CRANKINESS in addition to my wicked mood swings, i am either in imminent danger of getting my "special lady time" or turning into a homicidal maniac... lol

i didn't do too awful this weekend, but back on track again this morning.. i need to set monthly goals i think.. if i have a series of smaller goals it might be easier to keep on track.

february will see me with a new list of steps and a weight goal..

week three - friday

I did good i think

number one: eating
calories 100% sedentary, good stuff.. i am going to try and use the sedentary number
fat 108% close.. again, sedentary number
fibre 89% pretty close
protein 72% damn it i even ate tuna!!! lol
sodium 132% def been better.. lordy

number two: exercise - shovelled snow for 15-20 min (my son got too cold so we had to come in)

number three: water - so-so, about 2 glasses so far

week 3 - thursday

well, this has not been the best eating week, i have to say. yesterday was a nightmare! but it was fun :D. today i did not do so good, but a migraine prevented it from getting worse, i was in bed instead of eating more.

number one: eating
calories 100% (but i didn't really exercise to deserve my calories
fat 155%, yeah.. all kinds of wrong to get there
fibre 102% and that's hard to do.. i am impressed
protein 75%, christ that is hard to do!!!
sodium 134% unfortunately that one is not hard at all to do, in fact hard not to do.

number two: exersize
walking daughter to her bus, little bit of cleaning, lots of cooking

number three: water
pretty good.. 4 glasses

week 3 - wednesday - body image

i am pretty sure i posted about this last year, probably about this time.

Everytime i start to lose weight, i feel fatter. isn't that wierd? my clothes feel tighter, my stomach bigger, my body bothers me more.

is this because when i am not being careful, watching, and trying to exersize that i have blinders on? my bathroom has a MONSTROUS mirror in it, you HAVE to see yourself naked coming out of the shower. it isn't a shock.

why am i bothered more when i am losing weight, than when i am gaining?

i am sticking with it because of how pointless it all feels, i am using that anger and frustration to keep me going.

week three - monday

weight - +2, which is great because it means i am down 4 pounds from last week but still 2 pounds up from the 10 i kept off for most of last year.

i did really good last week, and i tracked most days, but didn't post my numbers because everday i managed to hit a hic-up that couldn't be tracked (like spaghetti sauce that my friend made and gave to me last year, frozen).

my water is better, but there is still the odd day when i have next to nothing and i am still working on it.

exercise sucked for the entire week. quite a bit of incidental excersize like cleaning, shopping, walking my daughter to the bus but nothing substantial. this week's goal is to do better in that department.

i think i lost the 4 pounds just because of the lack of chocolate and crap in the house and me making a concerted effort with my eating.

week two - monday

weight - same, which i consider to be +6

i did good, unless i missed something major, which i don't think i did.. cool.

number one: eating i stayed within my calories, and fat. half of my fibre and protein and managed not to go over in sodium. good day :D
number two: exercise - uh.. grocery shopping with a three year old counts, right?
number three: water - not bad

week one - thursday

number one: eating - great in the morning, not bad at lunch and dinner, however there was some leftover chocolate consumage, popcorn, and general badness in the evening. this is a process, people!! lol
number two: exercise - had to show my friend just dance 2, 20 minutes!! yay
number three: water - not so good

week one - wednesday

fell off the wagon.. oh, that hurts the love handles LOL

number one: eating - bad!! bad bad.. :(
number two: exercise - not unless cleaning out the boy's closet counts
number three: not bad

week one - tuesday

number one: eating - did better.. i wrote everything down and am doing good with chocolate withdrawl
number two: exercise - i shovelled snow off the driveway and sidewalk, totally counts!!
number three: water - did good again

monday - week one

number one: eating - did good.. not fantastic, but i wrote everything down and am weaning myself off the chocolate
number two: exercise - i met my 1000 sweat points for the day on wii
number three: water - did good :)

year two

so, here i am... 4 pounds down from this time last year. at this rate it will take me around 12 years to lose my 60lb.. distressing..

in my defense, until christmas i managed to keep off a consistent 10 pounds and didn't ever go above where i was at new years last year. even at christmas i stayed under where i was last year.

i consider that a victory. a small one, but a victory none the less.

i never gave up entirely, i watched the scale, was aware. and then not only was there the influx of christmas chocolate which is still lingering in pieces around my house (and don't mean just my hips) but i make fudge. i make REALLY good fudge, and there is a manatory amount of spatula licking, beater eating, unevenly cut piece consumage.

these badly damaged my 10 pound window.

so here i am, ready to go again but with a new tactic.

number one: i have to watch what i eat, i can't eat whatever i want
number two: exersize, there has to be some (thankfully dear daughter got just dance 2 for the wii, it is exhausting!!!)
number three: water. my water consumption SUCKS. i need to work on that.
number four: goals, again realistic and same as last year, 60lb by the end of the year

dear husband put the treadmill in a place that is not user friendly, on the up side i now have a room to sew in, on the downside that is a sitting task and i need off my ass, not more excuses to stay on it LOL.. he says i can walk on it but not run. ok. between that and daily bouts of just dance 2 with the sweat meter and watching what i eat, i still think i can do this.